Okay so it wasn't exactly taken today. It was actually taken one Sunday when Brooke and I were goofing off. But it's pretty close to how I've looked today It's been a really crappy day. I've cried my makeup off, sweated what was left off and have just generally felt and looked like crap. But this day notwithstanding, We did have a decent month of June. We were at the beach for some of it. We went to the pool many times. I started a very rigorous workout regimen. We celebrated Brooke's birthday and had some fun here and there. I've read two more books and am have just started on another. I've started to battle some old demons again but I'm mightier these days than I was a year ago. I know that the power that raised Christ from the dead lives in me and I will persevere and be victorious. I lay claim to all He has promised me. The seeds planted in my heart and that were planted in my children's hearts when they were younger WILL come to fruition. Nothing can ever thwart God's plans. The plans He has for me are far greater than any I can make for myself. I just have to trust it.
Today I made some decisions that are going to affect a few people. But it's something I need to do for me. For my mental health and well-being. I can't move one if I still have one foot stuck in the past. It's hard to do because it affects my children. I've tried to figure a way where we can co-parents and both enjoy all the little milestones and celebrations in our children's lives. But it makes things so confusing and difficult for everyone, especially me. So my ex and I will go back to parenting separately. I have to move on and I can't sit and watch him move on. It hurts too badly. So that's where we are.
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