How I met the last person I texted and what our friendship means to me.
Wow! The last person I texted was my ex and it was a response to HIS text, let me make that clear! I'm not sure you can call us "friends" given all that we've been through, especially in the last few months, but we try for the sake of our children.
He is a great guy. And he wasn't a completely terrible husband. Most of the issues we had in our marriage were mine. Most. And I have many regrets. And a lot of guilt. These are things that I have to give over to God on a DAILY basis because I am the kind of person that has a tendency to pick them back up. All the time. And that causes trouble.
I think we are as reconciled as we can be for right now. If there is to be complete restoration, it will HAVE to be a God thing. I've learned it can't be forced. And if I'm being completely honest, I'm not sure I even want that. Sometimes I confuse feeling like I want restoration with just wanting to get rid of the guilt and regret. That is why I'm taking some time to focus on ME and trying not to worry so much about romantic relationships.
I do appreciate the father he is to our three amazing children. I do appreciate that he has been there for me many times since our divorce. And for now, that has to be enough.
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