The last moment I felt really, truly blissful
I had some time to think about this today and I have not felt truly blissful since my divorce. As Tyler Perry so eloquently wrote in Diary of a Mad Black Woman, "a few years of a divorce can take you through as many emotions as [21] years of a marriage". Ha! I'd say more. I have experienced emotions I didn't know existed and I don't think anyone does unless they have also been through a divorce.
Yes, I have had moments of happiness. But "really, truly blissful"? Maybe one day, I will again...
But I am fortunate to have had many of those "moments" in the past. Of course after the birth of each of my own children. But I think the last time other than that was when my nephew, Cooper was born. My entire family was there and there was just so much joy. I was still married and Jeff, the kids and I were anxiously awaiting that precious little man. I don't think there was ever a baby more anticipated and loved. My brother in-laws family, my family, everyone just happy and living in the moment of the glorious arrival of a child. And of course, he was absolutely perfect. Still is. He reminds me so much of my sister (he's a carbon copy of her!) and my son when he was little. It was indeed one of those moments when all was right with the world. In my world, anyway.
I know more moments of bliss are in my future. I get closer and closer every day. I pray moments of bliss await you as well!
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