I got to the doctor Monday and got my meds back. But get this--the idiot has been stalking my facebook page!!! Yup! Apparently he has no time to call me in the medicine he KNOWS I need to maintain what little sanity I have left but he can sure take the time to look me up on facebook to see me vent about it!
I have an appointment with my new doctor Tuesday so I won't have to worry about his crazy ass ever again. I hope it goes well.
I was feeling a little bit better yesterday until I went to Bible Study and got slapped in the face with "you need to stop talking like you do on facebook!"
WTH????? I have SO toned down my facebook vents. Yes, I'm still angry about some things, yes I still share a little bit more than a lot of people do. But "talking like I do"? I don't understand that. If she could've only seen how far I have come and how terribly that hurt my feelings.
It makes me feel once again like I have to clean myself up before I come before the Lord and that is SO backwards of the gospel that I know and understand and have come to embrace.
Of course if I thought I would find sympathetic ears, I was sorely mistaken. I just don't know what to do anymore. I can't seem to do anything right. All I ever heard for so long was what a bitch I am and how I don't even try. Well, I start trying and it seems like I'm always gonna fall short. So why bother?
No one cares what I'm feeling. All anyone wants to hear is feel good, positive crap that I just don't have in me right now. I so need new direction...
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