New Year's Resolutions

Most everybody makes them. Hardly no one keeps them.

I did a little research and found that the top five resolutions are usually:

1. Lose weight
2. Exercise
3. Stop smoking
4. Stop drinking
5. Get a new job

Well, I lost a significant amount of weight this past year and I could stand to lose more but losing weight and exercising for me is not about itself or the way I look. It's about being healthy and putting my body in the best possible condition to fight off any future diseases because I am in NO HURRY to go through more cancer treatment or anything else.

I don't smoke and I don't drink to excess on a regular basis. I do overdo it sometimes but not all the time. It's not a big enough problem to be a "resolution".

And I already love my job!

I can always set a goal to move closer to the Lord but that should be everyone's goal all the time. As long as we are still on this earth, we have room to get closer to Him.

But I love the idea of picking an area of one's life to make significant improvements. I love New Year's. It's like the girl in the movie Forest Gump said, "Don't you just love New Year's? Everybody gets another chance."

That's exactly right. A clean slate. A "do-over" to make things right that you screwed up on in the previous year (or years).

In the past few weeks, I've greatly reduced my time on social media and spent time in the Word partly because I greatly needed some clarity on certain areas of my life and also because we are about to go into the 21 Days of Prayer and Fasting and I wanted to sort of "ready myself" for the experience. I love that time. Sometimes it can get a little boring. But that's when I know my spirit really needs the "quiet".

Two things that the Lord brought to the forefront of my mind that I need to improve on (and that will greatly help my anxiety) is

1. overthinking things
2. allowing myself to be led by my emotions

Now I know not everyone overthinks things like I do. It's become a habit from years of having to be so organized and in charge because of having too many things to juggle. I feel like I have to have things figured out before they even start, mostly because I don't want to waste any unnecessary time.  To prove a point, a few months ago, I got VERY comfortable in a situation and allowed myself to stop overthinking because I felt so secure and then the rug was unexpectedly pulled out from underneath me.  

I think I have set up this coping mechanism in my head as a way to protect myself from emotional (and other) disasters like that.

But I know it's not healthy. None of us can know or adequately protect ourselves from all things related to the future. And worrying about the things we can't control or what someone else might do or think is a waste of the present. I have to learn to just take things as they come.

I think everyone has a tendency to let their emotions lead them. In fact, I KNOW we all do because we act and fail to act on the way we "feel". That's why people have affairs--they are no longer "in love" with their significant other. Murders and other crimes are often committed of a anger or jealousy because we let our hearts overrule our brains. 

We know in our heads what is right--most of us have been taught it. But we still tend to "go with our gut" or "follow our hearts".

The Bible specifically addresses this in several places but two verses that come immediatley to mind are:

Above all else, guard your heart for everything you do flows from it.

 ~~Proverbs 4:23 NIV

The heart is deceitful above all things and desperately sick. Who can understand it?

 ~~Jeremiah 17:9 ESV

This tells us NOT to follow our hearts but to guard them. I need to start thinking of my heart like a little child and let my brain be the parent that knows what's best even if it may not be enjoyable. 

I have definitely been led by my emotions a lot in my past. I fell in love too easily--many times. I let anger and frustration dictate my actions even though I knew they were wrong. Sometimes we all feel out of control. People push our buttons and then are surprised when we come unglued. It's understandable. But we all have to learn to take control of our emotions and not let them control situations, especially if we know we're going to pay a very high price for doing so--and we almost always do.

I'll definitely be working on these things this year.

Blessings