What a day!

Yesterday was not one of my worst days ever but it wasn't the best...thank God it's over!

I went to the doctor and discovered I am going to have to have knee surgery! Long story short, I was born with off-center knee caps. Didn't find out until I was in my twenties and had already done damage to them by playing catcher in softball for years, running, etc. The doc I saw then wanted me to go to physical therapy but I didnt. I was working full-time, going to college, my babies were little...I just didn't have time.

Now there is so much damage, I have no cartilage left and the knee caps are grinding into bone and arthritis has set in. He said if I don't have this surgery soon, I am looking at knee replacement or being crippled within ten years!

Talk about a shocker! And yes, I have to have both knees done but they will do them one at a time so the recovery time is not as long. And no more running. At all. Ever.

Zumba certification must also be postponed but I can return to doing Zumba as soon as I feel up to it.

I guess it's a good thing I haven't found a job yet--I would hate to take off work after just starting a new job. But then again...

We are getting desparate. I am so tired of being broke and barely keeping our heads above water. I try and I try to save money and every week we end up in the hole. It's frustrating.

Then I get an email from Dylan's AP English teacher--he has a 62! He didn't turn in any of his Summer work that I KNOW he did. Not long after that email came a phone call from his AP History teacher...he has a 20 in that class!!! What is UP with my brilliant son? It is so not like him to do this kind of crap but I was warned by college counselors last week that good kids sometimes tend to slack off during their Senior year. Well, I thank God for his teachers because he cannot afford to slack. His future depends too much on how he finishes high school and I know he's bored and burned out but he has to keep going. So all hell broke loose at our house last night while we reeled him back in a bit and told him what all he would lose if he did bring home unacceptable grades. And for him, yes, unacceptable is anything less than an A! B's & C's are fine if that's the best you can do but it isn't for him and I don't believe in settling for mediocrity!

I am still bummed about a few other things, missing some people and mad at myself for things I've done recently.

But I recognize all this trouble for what it is--Satan trying to steal my joy. I made the decision to commit myself to restoring my marriage and have been working hard to do that. We both have. We've been reading the Bible and praying together every morning and are excited about our counseling and our small group at church. I've done a lot of work on my own, too, trying to realize and accept that God is my everything--I don't need anything else! If I find joy in Him, joy will find me in everything else! It's something I have to consciously remind myself of that every day right now but praying for the day it comes automatically.

Busy day ahead today...CORE, pottery class, dance & etiquette class, praise team...then headed to T-town tomorrow!

Hope everyone has a great weekend!