Monday, the ex went with me.
Sometimes we are best friends. Sometimes I wish I could completely erase him from my life. This was taken during one of the moments when we (obviously) were the former. Right now, as I'm writing this, I'm feeling the latter. So maybe I best just leave it at that.
Tuesday I decided to try it alone. It really only takes 10 minutes once I'm there and coming home to coordinate rides is such a hassle. I've had many of you volunteer to go with me and I really do appreciate it. But now that I'm over the initial anxiety of it, I'm okay and it's easier for me to just go, get it over with and either go home and go to bed or go back to work.
I was not feeling the best. My throat is starting to get sore and the pain med is making me nauseous.
Wednesday was a very rough day! I'd argued with Kayti and of course, the ex. Again, gonna leave it alone. But I'd cried most of the day, still feeling nauseous and throat still scratchy.
For added fun, the clinic called at 6 a.m. and told me the machines were down at Acton Road and I needed to go downtown for treatment. Since before I began treatment, I'm doing good to answer a phone at 6 a..m. let alone remember anything said during the conversation. Somehow I got the time wrong but not by much. I also did not realize the cancer center was not actually in the Kirklin Clinic downtown (it is at Acton Rd) so I was late but they were pretty gracious. I went back to work since it was the middle of the day but I did not get much done. The powers that be at work decided our department needed to be on a different floor and I found out I had an hour to get my stuff packed and moved to my new area. All the dust flying, noise, chaos, people cleaning with strong chemicals, not to mention my regular nausea...I was SICK AS A DOG! I left around 4 and went home, put on my pajamas and just vegged. I did manage to mop, vaccuum and clean my own kitchen and get some laundry done since no one else around here seems to do it. (they say they do but not to my standards apparently)
Feeling much better on this Friday! I got a lot more done at work than usual but still left at 3 for treatment. Kayti and I ran a few errands, got takeout and I'm home on a Friday night, in my pajamas, getting some grad school homework done. (this better pay off big soon!) I'm not so nauseous today but NOTHING tastes right. I now know why they were telling me to eat all that tree bark and bermuda grass--I may as well be eating healthy because everything tastes like crap. I didn't even finish my Mexican takeout. And my throat is getting even more sore. I will see the doctor Monday and I will definitely be getting some mouth rinse!
Oh yeah--haven't had any coffee all week. I have had caffeine, but just not coffee and I LOVE coffee! But I can't handle the hot right now. Everything has to be cold! Very cold!
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