Almost halfway

and wishing it was over already!

It's Labor Day and I have been in bed since Friday night! I can't eat anything without throwing up. I have tried everything: pudding, baked potato, mac and cheese, refried beans--it all makes me want to puke.

I hate to sound whiny but since I'm hungry and I'm whiny when I'm hungry, there ya go! I know young children, even babies and others go through much worse and my hat is off to them because I'm struggling with the idea of stopping treatment. They got it all during surgery (or so they say)--this is supposed to be in case there is something microscopic. How much torture does it take to get rid of something microscopic?

It has burnt up my throat and caused sores all over because guess what? They didn't think to ask if I had metal fillings. Duh. What person over 30 doesn't? So the radiation has been pinging off the metal and making it worse. Finally, we got that under control with some beeswax and lidocaine mouthwash but I can't taste anything and the things I can swallow feel like big lumps of snot trying to slide down my throat. I can only handle a few bites of ramen at a time. Good thing it's cheap. I don't even like the taste of tea or coke and definitely no coffee. Even powerade I can't finish.  About the only thing I can finish is water or carnation instant breakfast. And that is getting so old.

Before all this I did get to the beach for a few days with my awesome friends. I tried to eat but I couldn't taste it so I definitely didn't finish. Oh how I miss food!

I'm trying not to get dehydrated but I won't be surprised if I have to get an IV or two before it's all over with. And I cannot wait for it be all over with!