Just an update

I'm doing much better. Though I still haven't reconciled or even talked to my mom, I have been praying a lot and trying not to be so hard on myself about other things. I'm working hard to be thankful and deserving of what God has blessed me with even though I know I don't have to earn anything. But knowing that just makes me all the more grateful. And I am trying to lavish that same unconditional love on others, especially my children, especially the one remaining at home because I know what it's like to not feel it from other people. I'm thankful that we can feel it from God.

I am liking my new job but the cut in pay is really hard. I'm praying a lot about that and trying to be grateful that I even have a job in this economy. I'm looking at things I can cut back on but that's hard also.

I am thinking about transferring to a different graduate school. I have been completely happy with UNA but I was talking with a good friend that I met my first semester there and he is transferring to Columbia Southern University. They have a different format where you take one class every six to eight weeks and the work is mostly writing. I wouldn't have to take Finance or Accounting again or repeat undergraduate Economics and they offer MBA concentrations such as Human Resources. It's also cheaper which means I would end up with less debt. The only thing that makes me hesitate is that Columbia Southern is not very well known and I'm not sure a degree from them would carry the same weight as one from UNA. Then again, I went to Birmingham-Southern for the same reason and it doesn't seem to be doing me any good. I am not sure yet but I have the rest of this semester at least to think and pray about it.

I did lose seven pounds on my new diet. It's really really hard to eat low carb. I would have thought eating meat, which I love, would be easy but it's not. I also found out I have a mild allergy to cow dairy. I don't get sick or anything but my body doesn't process it very well and it hinders my metabolism and other things so I have to try and stay away from that as much as possible.

I have discovered that my Tuesday zumba class on the concrete floor is really irritating my knees and causing the shooting leg pains I've been having so I won't be returning to that either.

Everything else is okay. Still in limbo about a lot of things but keeping the faith that God is going to change all that very soon. I just have to remember that His ways are not our ways.