I got a job! I am a secretary/receptionist/bookkeeping assistant for Sauls Seismic, Inc. For those of you that don't know (because I sure didn't) Seismographs measure ground vibrations. This information is needed when someone wants to construct something major--like a bridge or interstate, dig deep into the ground--to mine or build tunnels, or to blast anything--like to mine or demolish a structure. This company makes and sells seismographs and also provides monthly readout services to various companies that do these things. We also do inspections for damages and offer expert testimony in court or arbitration is it relates to anything that may concern blasting, mining, etc.
For the most part, it's a good job. It's not stressful AT ALL and everyone here is very nice. The only problem is it doesn't pay as well as my last job and I have no insurance as I'm on ITAC's (employment agency) payroll for six months. That is stressing me out! If not for that, it'd be the perfect job to have while I begin work on my MBA in the Fall.
Yes, I have applied to the University of North Alabama's Executive MBA program! I don't think I'll have a problem being accepted but waiting on all the paperwork to get to the proper places. It'll be totally online so no, I'm not moving to Florence. But UNA is a good choice for me because it's completely online. Alabama nor UAB (not that I would do UAB anyway) doesn't offer an online MBA program and I just can't bring myself to go to Auburn, even online! lol
Speaking of Auburn, I have been dating an Auburn fan for about a month! Yes, I know, you probably need to check the temperature in hell! But I really like him and for a minute or two, I thought it might be going somewhere. But some nosy people kinda put the brakes on that so who knows. I was very upset for a few days but I can honestly say that I've said my peace, done all I can do and have given it completely over to God. I am in no hurry for a "serious" relationship or commitment (i.e. engagement, marriage, etc.). In no way am I even close to ready for that. But I'm not the kind of person that can see multiple people at the same time. Yes, I know, two years ago, I cheated on my husband. But I was NOT with both at the same time and I confessed within two weeks and within a month had moved out. I'm quite certain my life would have been a LOT easier had I continued on as an adulteress until I got myself set up, etc. but that just isn't me. So anyway, we'll see what happens. I ALWAYS pray for God to remove things from my life that aren't in His plan to prosper me and for me to have the abundant life I know He wants for me so I have to accept that He may be closing the door on this. And that's fine. At least I know I'm still capable of caring for someone else like that. And He will bring the right person at the right time, I know this.
In the meantime, I am praying about many things but two really big ones:
1) I am considering joining a ministry called DivorceCare. I've been asked to intern in the Fall and eventually become a facilitator! I feel very strongly right now that this is what He wants me to do. For a long time now, I have had a heart to share my testimony of the past two years with struggling marriages. I know when I was going through the issues at the time, I felt I had NO WHERE to turn. It isn't easy, especially for a Christian woman to confess feelings of lust, insecurity and no longer being in love with your husband to anyone, especially in the church. Many pastors/church leaders don't believe that a woman actually desires sex just for the sake of sex! You get told all this talk about "women just want to be loved, feel secure, be understood" etc. Well yes, but a lot of times, we just want to get laid! And sometimes, especially if we're lacking in sexual experience, we're curious about a lot of things that maybe we shouldn't be curious about but we still are.
"What is it like to be with another man? Is it really all that different person to person? Why can't I get excited about my husband the way I get excited about a celebrity? Why can't he get me off? Is it me or is he just gotten terrible?"
Those are just a few. And forgive me for being blunt but I do feel that sometimes, that's what is needed, within the scope of Scripture, of course and Scripture DOES address these things. But someone who hasn't been through it cannot point you to the right place.
I feel that the call on my heart was confirmed recently when I had two friends approach me recently asking about my divorce and was it worth it. They had similar feelings, concerns and issues and I was as honest with them as I could be. I had dear friends try and caution me before I made the biggest mistake of my life and I didn't (at the time I felt I couldn't--the force was just that strong) heed their warnings. I am praying that because I KNOW what they are feeling that they will listen to me.
If I can save ONE marriage or help ONE person to heal from the same experiences I had....I still can't bring myself to say "it was all worth it" but at least some good will come out of it.
2) I am considering going on a mission trip to Israel next year! I have ALWAYS wanted to be involved in short-term missions (sorry but I am too modern-worldly to become a long term missionary! I need to get my toes/nails done, sleep in a comfy bed every night and take regular showers!) I tried to go to Mexico last Christmas to work in an orphanage (I DO have a heart for orphans and it brings me so much joy to read and hear all about my friends who are able to adopt) but it was canceled because of the political climate at the time.
I don't really feel God calling me to a specific part of the earth like many people do. My friends, the Ferrills have a heart for China. My former pastor's family has a heart for Mexico. My daughter's heart is for Africa. I love the people of these places and also the Middle East and India. There isn't really any place I wouldn't go. But I just don't feel a strong call right now to any one particular region. So until I do, I think I would enjoy seeing the Holy land. To walk and pray in the same places Jesus did...I can't imagine how that could make the Bible come alive for me. I am and always have been fascinated by history and I am praying that if it is God's will, He will confirm it and work out a way for me to go.
So I'd appreciate everyone's prayers in those two areas!
The kids are doing great. School is out. Kayti is working part-time at Jack's and Brooke is trying to enjoy her last month of freedom before she has to start band camp. Kayti took the ACT again Saturday so prayers please for a very high score! She has already scored high enough to get into Alabama but we need scholarships so we don't have to do student loans! I am so excited for both of them and everything they have to look forward to at this precious time in their lives! As for Dylan, he is staying in T-town this summer and I miss him greatly! But he continues to do well and amaze me as the most awesome son God made besides His own!
I continue to be blessed by my church! I have joined three more small groups besides Singles Serving Christ that I was already a part of.
One is a Divorce Recovery group that my friends, Jenny, Sharon, Madrina and Bruce are members of. The facilitators are wonderful and while I'm at peace with my divorce, I do want to examine a few things about myself, especially with regard to new relationships. We meet on Sundays at 11:30 so I get up and go to the 9:30 service and then to class.
The second is a hiking group that meets every Sunday at 1:15 (and some Saturdays) for a day hike somewhere. I am trying to prepare myself to one day hike at least part of the Appalachian Trail and the Grand Canyon. I also enjoy meeting people that share my interests.
The third is 50 Days to Prosperity and it is, as the name implies, a money management class. Lord knows I need that! I like to think I've done better and I have--no new credit cards in years. But there is so much room for improvement. I don't like living paycheck to paycheck. I'm not so much concerned with buying houses and fancy cars but I want to be able to go on mission trips without having to do fundraisers and give to causes and ministries I believe in and to go to the movies with my kids when they want and to be able to pay for the things they need and some of what they want without having to stress about it. I've done Dave Ramsey and still plan to do the Crown Financial class at some point but for now, this can't hurt.
My Singles Serving Christ group met the first Saturday in June and did yard work at Cornerstone school. I LOVE to cut grass. I know that's weird but I find it very therapeutic. I just push along, think about the kids that play on that grass, pray for them, talk to the Lord and before I know it, I can see results! I guess it satisfies, in some small way, my need for instant gratification! LOL We are meeting this Saturday to help with a Sports Camp for kids at Children's Harbor. I'm really excited! Even though I'm over wanting to work with them daily, I still like to be around kids and babies every once in a while! ;)
I am currently reading my Pastor, Chris Hodges' book, Fresh Air. I am about halfway through it and need to finish up because I need to loan it to someone and praying they will read it. But I just love Pastor Chris. He is truly anointed and in such a way that just makes me thirst after God's Word! He breaks everything down to where it's so simple that you're smacking your head going, "Of course!" But not only do I need to finish up to pass the book along, I have a LONG list of things I need to get to reading. I have just been in a reading slump lately. But maybe now that I've stopped doing facebook so much, I'll be able to focus more on it. I hope!
I have officially lost 25 pounds since March 1! This is the most weight I've ever lost and I'm excited and it makes me all the more motivated. I'm still walking Cosby Lake and doing Zumba and hoping to rejoin the Y soon so I can take advantage of the weights and swimming (Next Total Fitness just wasn't working out. The pool was always messed up and just didn't feel very clean. Plus it's not as convenient as the Y is for me so I guess you get what you pay for). But other than trying to stay active, I have cut out soft drinks mostly, cut WAY down on alcohol, just eat whatever I want but smaller portions of it and I drink a LOT of water!
I guess that's about it for my life! Please comment below and tell me about yours!
Be blessed!
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