and again...

So I forgave him and gave him another chance but we broke up again yesterday.

I've learned to never say never and I do care about him a lot...but the bond (if there ever was one) is weakening. Or maybe I'm getting stronger. He didn't hit me this time but he just has issues, deep, troubling issues that I dont know how to handle. I thought I was a moody person...sheesh. It's just not going to work out and I think I'm finally cool with that. I gave it my best shot but you cant make people grow up and act right. Just wish I'd realized the kind of person he was sooner...oh well. Live & learn.

I've been talking to some other people and looking forward to my future as a single gal. I plan on having a good time now that I have the chance. Just need the freedom and independence of a car...ugh! That is KILLING me!

Only 25 more days of school for me and I have mixed emotions about that. Mostly I will be glad. This has been a really tough year for me as a teacher. Partly because of all the drama going on in my personal life but not entirely. This has been a really difficult class! And I cant help but compare them to last year's PERFECT class!

But the sad part is, besides the fact that I really will miss a few of them, is that I will be unemployed! I've been looking and pounding the proverbial pavement for months now, have sent out countless resumes and even went on a couple of interviews...just gotta keep trusting God that He has something out there for me and will bring it about in His perfect timing.

I started a new Bible study this week, also. It's called "Time for Healing: Making peace with your divorce" I'm learning a lot but some of it doesnt apply since I caused my own predicament...I dont really feel like a "victim" even though I do have wounds and scars.

Still reading "Boundaries" by Henry Cloud and learning a lot from that as well. Started back exercising but still not into a good routine since I dont have a car but I do know I will have a chance to workout Monday and maybe even more this week.

Planning on doing a 5k (walking) with an old nemisis/new friend this Friday. Hope to do more of them, even if I cant run...

That's all that's new for me...have a blessed week!