Tonight marks the end (I'm hoping and praying) of the most miserable two months of my life! Tonight I made my big return to Zumba!!!!
Yes, it has been SEVEN--count them--SEVEN weeks since I was last at Zumba--the week before I found out I would have to have knee surgery!!!
Looking back I am thoroughly convinced that not being able to exercise like I was used to these past few months has been a major contributing factor to how rough things have been. I know it wasn't the cause of a lot of it. Much of it I brought on myself because I made poor choices and some stuff just happened...because it was part of God's plan, I'm told and I just have to accept that. But how I handled it and how I continue to handle things is totally up to me and I've been trying to cope without two of my major stress relievers--prayer and exercise!!!
Me and God are working on the prayer part. I'm still very angry with Him. He understands--we've been here before, He and I and we'll get through it. I still love Him and I know He loves me. And my pastor tells me it's perfectly okay to be "real" with God--He can handle it! Good thing! I know He'll eventually get His way--He always does. But I'm stubborn, the way He created me. I don't always want to make it easy on myself by going along with His plan. I'm a spoiled kid--I want what I want when I want it how I want it with who I want it and where I want it! My terms! You'd think after 31 years of belonging to Him I would learn that it's not on my terms---it's His terms. And like any loving Father, He knows what's best. I just have to trust Him. But I have trust issues so....
Anyhoo, I decided tonight would be my "return debut" because it was 80's night. I was guessing things would be a little more laidback than usual and that that would be a good time to ease back into it...I was right!
I had SO MUCH fun pickiing out my outfit--I went with a British shirt, thin Tee, but long like I used to wear them. Good thing leggings were a staple of the 80's wardrobe because they are a MUST for Zumba. I knew there was no way I could recreate my big hair of the 80's without cutting it so I pulled it up in a side ponytail and streaked it red!
It was so cool to see what everyone else wore, too. The 80's was definitely a decade of no defined style--pretty much anything went! There were fluorescent tights and leg warmers, mini skirts, long tulle Madonna-looking skirts, stripes and dots...everything! It was so funny!
We did our regular routines to "Mickey", "Flashdance", "Celebration", "Footloose" and much more! It brought back a LOT of memories even if I didnt hear Hungry Like the Wolf or Def Leppard! We were all laughing at each other and having a great time and I realized then how much I had missed it and how much my missing it had played a part in my attitude over the past two very tumultuous months. Between being forced to sit around because of knee surgery, being unemployed, experiencing the loss of a precious child, struggling family relationships and friendships and a car wreck--I have really missed my endorphins! No other hobby gives me what zumba/exercise gives me and I've tried it all! Nothing wrong with any of it, I still enjoy many of them whenever I have time but there is no comparison when it comes to the benefits--physical, mental, emotional, and spiritual.
And my knee performed fine! Heck I've put more pressure on it when Jeff, friends and I have been out dancing just for fun! I will be wrapping it Monday though--I expect to push it a little harder!
And so begins the road to recovery...REAL recovery. Finally!
And of course, there are pictures and I will post them as soon as I can!
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