I try to keep my blogs positive for the most part but I'm running low on Celexa and I won't get in to see my new doctor until November. So if I don't get this out I'm gonna go nuts! If I can see it in print, I might can formulate a plan of action inside my brain. That's the way my mind works...
Number one: I want a new job! There. I said it. I LOVE what I do. I LOVE these kids. Most of the time. No, really, all of the time. Sometimes the little buggers can try my patience but I DO love them. Dearly. And I show them, even when I have to get onto them. And for a few of them, that's a lot! But there are so many other things that just frustrate me to no end. I'm not going to sit here and list them. I don't want to bash anyone or bite off the hand that feeds me. Especially right now. For the most part, it's just the nature of the beast and I get it. But I still get tired of it. As much as I hate to admit it, I think it may be time for a change. But what?
Number two: I'm tired of being broke all the time!! I'm not extravagant in my spending. I'm not lazy. I work hard. I get side gigs and I've applied for a second job...we'll see. But it seems no matter what I do, I cannot make my paychecks last and I keep getting further and further in the hole and I don't like it.
Number three: I'm becoming completely obsessed with a new apartment. This one will always hold a special place in my heart as it was the first place I ever got truly on my own. And I like where it is, I love my neighbors. But it needs some work and I am not optimistic that the landlord is going to want to do anything to it. It needs updating in several areas--the plumbing, the wiring, the carpet, tile, cabinets, counter tops. And the fence is about to fall completely over. I've found a place right around the corner that is MUCH nicer and actually $45 less per month than what I already pay. But they don't allow pets. And I won't give up Mady. Plus I know it's really not a good time to think about moving especially given my money situation. Even if I found a cheaper place, I'd have to pay to transfer everything. And its getting too close to Christmas. Ugh!
Number four: I'm getting so tired of douchebag men!!! I'm a big girl. If you're not interested in me, just tell me. It's fine, I can handle it. But don't leave me hanging--I have plenty of other options, trust me! But man up and say so! Sheesh!
So there. That's what I want. A new job, a new apartment and a new relationship without drama and games. Is that really that much to ask?
No, I didn't think so either!
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