I go all week and think of all kinds of things to write about but have NO TIME to do it and then when I finally DO get a chance to write...I draw a complete blank or I'm just not in the mood.
I am struggling in the relationship department lately and I dont mean the romantic relationships. I still dont have one of those! Just dating if you can call it that. There is someone I'm interested in but I'm still gunshy about opening my heart up to another man, I dont really have a lot of time and I'm still trying to navigate and learn all the "rules" to this "dating" thing. He makes me smile and for now, that's enough.
But my other relationships--my roommate/bestie, my mother, my 13 year old daughter...all I can say is UGH! I dont really want to share details on any of it right now, except to say the 13 yo is just typical mother-daughter 13 yo stuff. But I am reminded everyday that if God had given me that child first, the other two might not have made it here at all! lol I do love her though and admire her spirit. Wonder where she gets it from? ;)
But I'm kickin ass on everything else. I've walked a total of 9 1/3 miles this week. I started back to Zumba Tuesday night and started taking an adult dance (tap/hip hop/clogging combo) class Thursday night. I have ALWAYS ALWAYS ALWAYS loved dance and took for a while when I was younger. Then of course when I was a majorette in high school, I took a LOT of dance. I love every kind of dance. Took some bellydancing lessons a few years ago and loved it as well and I'd really like to do that again if I could find the time.
But my left knee is giving me a little bit of trouble. I never finished the physical therapy for it because of the divorce and so it's just very weak despite the walking and weights. I'm going to have to wrap it next week until I can build the strength back up in it.
I really loved getting back to Zumba. At first I wasn't jazzed because it just felt like aerobics to Christian music. That's not REAL zumba! I love Christian music but when I'm doing Zumba moves (or supposed to be) I need my latin! Or at least some pop! But then she started doing some choreography that I recognized from my other class and I didnt miss too many steps! That's surprising to me since it's been ten months since I've been to a class. I got to talking with her after class and turns out she trained under Debbie, my old instructor. As soon as Soccer season is over, (and tax school) I'm gonna pick up Zumba on Mondays and Thursdays as well. It's still a dream of mine to get certified (if the knee will cooperate)
So I've been exercising like crazy, eating right and I feel great and I look good in my clothes (have gone down a few sizes and could probably go down one more) but I still haven't lost any weight or even look like it in the mirror. Maybe I need to go to a weight loss doc...
And yes, I signed up for tax school. I start Monday and will go Mon/Wed from 6-9 for six weeks. No, I'm not changing careers--I LOVE my job! I just love being around all those babies! And I get paid well and treated well to do it! But if I complete this course, Jackson Hewitt (or some other tax place) will hire me back during tax season to do income tax returns and that pays very well as a side gig. I need to really sock away some money because I am going car shopping tomorrow (finally--pray!), am moving out at the end of this month, Christmas is coming up, my need/wish list is endless (as is Brooke's), Dylan is going to need more money next semester and I have a 15 year old driver that will be needing a car of her own soon (yes, I know she doesnt NEED one but it would actually help me out a lot for her to have one as well!)
And yes I'm moving out, not quite sure where yet and I'm scared shitless. But I'm excited at the same time. It's time for this wounded bird to try and fly again--even if it is solo with two baby birds hanging onto my feet!
Prayer requests: my car/house hunt, relationships, my mom & dad's health, and many other unspoken--large & small. God knows all about them and I know He's got it all handled. I just need peace.
Have a blessed weekend and week!
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