Emotions

I'm not emotional like most women "get emotional". I take a pill for that.

But the emotions (if they can even be called that) I do get seem backwards or criss-crossed from what other people seem to (or claim to) have.

I care about things I shouldn't. Like making sure I get the last word in a smack-talking argument against an obnoxious, dumbass Auburn fan. And I could seemingly care less about things I SHOULD care about. Like offending a friend or hurting their feelings. I dont think I dont REALLY care but I just dont feel what I think I should most of the time.

I fall easily for men I shouldn't. From one extreme--a drug addicted, abusive psychopath; to a lesser extreme--developing feelings of attachment to friends (some with "benefits") who I know (and sometimes have made it clear) have no interest in having any kind of a relationship with me.

But those that have proven to truly love almost unconditionally--like my ex husband of 21 years or any man that seems to express a genuine interest in me other than sexually--well, I just dont reciprocate.

Even in my work, I lavish love and affection on those children in my care but am far less affectionate with the children in my own family (please note: my own children are teenagers and dont WANT me to love on them all the time, however please know that I did when they were little and still do when I can get away with it!) and with my nephews--I dont see a whole lot of them like I wished I could and when I do, after 40 hours of babies every week, I'm just quite honestly over it. I hate that I feel that way and I DO love them but...it is what it is!

And so I can't help but wonder...am I "emotionally challenged"?

And if so, is there a pill for that?

:)