It's 5:51 a.m. and I'm sitting in here in the kitchen where we moved the computer. I just dropped Jeff off at Deerfoot and I'm ever so thankful not to have to drive all the way downtown and back this morning. (obviously, the jeep is not fixed yet!) But now...do I go back to bed for a few minutes or do I stay up and try to get some stuff done? I'm torn. I'm really tired but if I go back to bed, getting back up is only going to be harder!
It was a long day yesterday. I had 13 4 yo's by myself. No big deal. I had way more than that this summer and they were all pretty good yesterday. But I worked 7:30-4:30 instead of my usual 8-3. Plus I had taken some tylenol pm the night before and was still feeling a little groggy all day. I tried to lie down with my kiddos and take a nap and I did doze for a bit but the floor was cold and that made it harder. I really need to get a heater for my room since the church obviously doesn't care if we all freeze to death. I don't know how my babies manage to sleep, let alone avoid getting pneumonia.
Speaking of which, my dad now has! Lord I wish I was rich and could retire him and my mom. They've worked so hard all their lives for us kids and they still have to keep working. They aren't that old yet but I'm really worried about their health and the stress they keep being under.
I keep trying to figure out what my next career move should be. More rumors about the daycare closing after this year are starting to circulate again and at this point, nothing would surprise me. I just can't figure out if why, if they are planning to close, do they keep taking babies? I also can't figure out why, if this non-profit venture made so much money before, when it wasn't supposed to, why is it going in the hole now? And what difference does it make if it's a ministry and not supposed to make any money anyway. Something just isn't right somewhere. Not that I am really all that concerned. My job is to come in, teach and love those children and go home. But I'm starting to wonder if I couldn't do that somewhere else. Or should I try and open my own place? It's been a dream of mine for awhile but am I ready? Do I want to step out of my comfort zone of the classroom and start dealing with all the headaches a director has? Would it make a difference that it was MY place and MY ministry. And where do I locate? Oh Lord, give me some answers here! What should I do? What is in the best interest of my family? More importantly, what do YOU want me to do, Lord? You know I have no discernment whatsoever when it comes to knowing your direction for me. You are going to have to make this abundantly clear. All my prayer warriors out there--please intercede for me!
We finally got furniture moved around inside the house. We did divide the living room and made a little "nook" for Brooke! I need to get her a dvd player for her tv and a curtain for some privacy. But it doesn't look too bad. It's a good thing we don't entertain much. I miss it--we used to entertain all the time when we had our big house in Tarrant (and I so miss that house) but not so much since moving to this cracker-jack box. Maybe one day...
So it won't be pictured in Better Homes & Gardens but I don't care. It's warm, cozy, clean and I'm looking forward to having more PEACE as my two girls have their own corners to retreat to when they start to get on each other's (and mine) nerves!
So it's 6:03 now and I guess I've pretty much decided to stay up so I may as well start breakfast!
Have a blessed day!
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