Yes, I know. It's been awhile since I've made time to blog. Life has been super crazy busy--full of the good and bad, ups and downs that make it interesting. I'm not even sure where to begin.
I started a new job and it has been difficult for a number of reasons. It's a great company and I like my boss and coworkers. But the business we're in frustrates me. It's not like a normal business where you perform a service and get paid and everyone is happy. It's government regulated and on top of that the clients can be difficult. And as soon as I think I have it figured out, things change. I've learned a lot, that's for sure. It's definitely challenging and never boring. I have great benefits, finally make a decent salary and for the most part I'm happy. There are days when I wish I was back teaching preschoolers, doing crafts, fixing snacks and making bulletin boards. It all seems like a lifetime ago. And then I remind myself that that profession came with its own challenges as I imagine every job does. So I digress. I'm content for now, thankful to be employed.
Kayti has been in the hospital twice. She's okay and I'm not going to disclose what was wrong out of respect for her privacy but it's an ongoing issue and probably will be for quite sometime. There have been an array of other things involving her that we have had to deal with. She is back home living with me, looking for a job and planning to go to Jeff State in the Fall and become an EMT. On a happy note, she is going to church again and has renewed faith in God. We are praying continually for God's hand over her life. She's been coming to small group with me on Tuesday night (and btw, I have finished and delivered 3 prayer shawls, have 1 more to be delivered and am halfway through another. I also completed my first afghan!) and we also joined a hiking small group on Sunday afternoons. Most days it seems she's trying.
Brooke made colorguard again for her upcoming Senior year and we are very excited! Looking forward to another great football season with our Cougars. She also had the female lead in the Spring Musical. She was Audrey from Little Shop of Horrors and she blew everyone away! To see her walking in those 5 inch stilletto heels and speaking with the Brooklyn accent--it was great! And she has an amazing singing voice! It was an emotional night as their beloved theater professor, Mr. Mac retired. I know he will be dearly missed. She also is starting a new job soon at the Cracker Barrel and I finally bought another car so she can drive the Mustang. But I made it clear it is still very much my car whenever I need some top-down therapy!
The car I bought is an SUV. It's not brand new but a decent vehicle and had everything I wanted--a sunroof, towing package and it's crimson! I can't wait for tailgating! I named it Steve to go with my mustang, Miranda! Steve and Miranda. If you have never watched Sex and the City you won't get it. One day I will have a camaro named Carrie and an RV named Big. :)
My parents finally moved out of Tarrant City and into a rental home in Clay right next door to Mia. I think they had mixed feelings about leaving Tarrant behind as we all did but they seem to be settling in.
I finished another semester of graduate school and made two A's and B. I'm more proud of the B than the A's because the B was in Cost Accounting! I now have 5 classes left before I am an MBA (Master's of Business Administration). And yes, it's a BIG deal! I'm excited to start seeing the light at the end of the tunnel.
Dylan is out of school for the summer but has a new job in Hueytown so he is staying in Tuscaloosa. He has one more semester at Alabama and he will be a Bama grad! I am so proud of him but I miss him so much. I know I may as well get used to it. My little boy is all grown up and gone on his own. I know I should be proud that I did my job well in raising such a wonderful young man but there will always be a part of me that longs to rock my babies again. I think he will probably end up moving to Huntsville for a job when he graduates. We'll see.
I'm contemplating buying a house again within the next year. I have fought it for so long because home ownership did not have any advantages for me before. Plus I just don't know where I want to be and hate the thought of being tied down to a piece of property. I have thought of moving to the beach many times. Or living on Southside. Or moving to a small town a little further north. But rent just keeps getting so expensive. And I like the thought of buying a lot of property so I can take care of my parents. I definitely like the thought of getting out of Jefferson County. But we'll see.
I continue to have issues with my knees which makes weight loss increasingly difficult. I saw the knee doctor again a few months ago but as usual, he just wants to cut cut cut. And I'd be willing if I knew that would fix things. But the problem, he says, is a collapsed MCL (ligament). He says there's nothing that can really be done except knee replacement. But in my research on knee replacement, the new knee depends on the ligaments around it for success. Well, that's the part that's messed up! What good is a new knee if the surrounding tissue is what's bad? Why can't they just fix that? He has not been able to explain it to my satisfaction. I'm getting a second opinion soon. I just can't accept that Noah Galloway can run marathons and compete in dance with one leg and they can't fix my stupid knee! I did get a brace that helps me continue to power walk and ride the old lady bike at the gym. But I miss zumba! I REALLY miss zumba!
Before I can think about a second opinion on the knee, I have to have neck surgery! This bump on the side of my neck that I've complained to THREE doctors about who all told me it was "just a swollen lymph node" is actually a tumor! That's right, a tumor! The biopsy showed it's most likely benign but it still needs to come out and sooner rather than later because the bigger it gets--and it will get bigger, the specialist said--the greater the risk of nerve damage to my face when they do remove it. So I go under the knife next week. It should be a relatively short recovery. I just hope it's not a big scar.
With all that's been going on in my life, my circle of friends has changed somewhat. I saw it coming. I still love them all dearly but I just had nothing left to give and it seem to be continually demanding. I went through a period when *I* needed someone to be there for me and apparently they had nothing left to give me either. No calls asking about my medical results or my daughter's well-being. Jealousy for when I spend time with other people and assuming things without asking. I'll never know exactly what happened because I never got the courtesy of being asked. But like I said, I'm not really all that surprised. I'm a little hurt but not mad. I could never hate and I wish them all well. I truly do. Maybe our paths will cross again one day. Maybe not. I'm content to leave it in God's hands.
I've been feeling disconnected from many things lately and feel it's time to refocus and reprioritize. I've tried to give up Facebook before and it's difficult when so many things are connected to it now--small groups, contacts, etc. But it does suck your time. And I'm so weary of the drama. You say just about anything at all and people take it personally if they disagree, whether it's religion, politics (which I hate) or even sharing your own personal experiences--people take it as a personal attack on THEM. It's ludicrous. And I'm so sick of how brave but nasty people can be to each other when sitting behind a computer screen. I am just about ready to move on. I've never had anything to hide but it gets old when everyone thinks they know you just because they are your friend on facebook. Just silliness. We'll see how that goes, too.
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