reCreate

All I can say right now really is....WOW!

I absolutely LOVE going to conferences and I never knew why until this past week when I was studying my lesson for my LIFE group and I came across this revelation:

When we starve our bodies, we hunger for more. Our tummies cry out, "Feed me! Feed me! I must have nourishment!"  Some people (me included) will even get dizzy or a headache if we dont eat at least a little something on a regular basis. However...

When we starve our spirits, we DON'T hunger for more. The spirit grows quiet until it becomes difficult to even FORCE yourself to feed it. I had never thought about that but it's true. When one falls out of the habit of going to church, studying the Word, praying, fellowship with other believers...there is no great craving for more. Sad, but true.

So when I go to conferences or get really involved in church, my soul cries out for more! I get really on fire for God and I have so much wisdom and insight that I just want to scream it out to anyone and everyone!

But this one was different. Not that I didn't get fed--boy did I ever! My soul AND my body! But it was just so different the WAY my spirit was fed..no great altar calls of rededication. No overwhelming spiritual experience, no outpouring of emotions (I did cry once!).

But I am filled with a new motivation that both excites me and terrifies me at the same time!

I didn't hear God tell me to go do some great wonderful thing in His name.  What I heard most was Him telling me to "be still".

You see, that is just not me. I have to have a plan. I love surprises, yes, but they can't be so over the top that they don't fit neatly into my nice little schedule/routine. Wanna run off to the beach spur of the moment? Sure, just let me make a few calls!

I've been learning, truly. One cannot go from being a happy housewife to single, homeless and crazy and then back to stability without giving up control over a few things. But it's WAY out of my comfort zone. I need to know what's coming!

But over and over lately, I've heard this quiet still voice tell me, "Don't worry--you're good, I've got this." And this weekend it was like, "IN CASE YOU DIDNT HEAR ME BEFORE LET ME TELL YOU AGAIN---I'VE GOT THIS!!! JUST BE!"

Just be. Okay. I think I can do that. Maybe. I can try...

And I will. Try. To let go and let God. Again.  Whatever He wants is fine with me. Truly this time. If I'm to serve Him where I am, I will. If I am to go to Rwanda and plant crops, I will. If I am to remarry, I trust He already has someone picked out for me that is everything I ever wanted and more. If I'm to be alone and (gasp, choke, cough) celibate, focused ONLY on serving Him, okay.

Really, Lord. Just direct my steps. And scream loudly!

There are so many more thoughts and points I will make later but for now...it's just WOW!

Random Thought Thursday

There is not a female singer/rock star more awesome than Pink!!!

I wonder just exactly HOW much my car insurance is going to go up...with a new teenager driver...on a Mustang...Convertible!

How is it we can see exactly what others should do in certain situations but are so blind when it comes to our own?

Why do we obsess over certain things/people/relationships and not others? This isn't such a random thought. I probably should blog more on this because it doesn't make sense to me why some things bother me and others don't...no sense at all. But I can't think about that today. I will think about that tomorrow! Ha!

All of life's problems should hit us when we are teenagers and know EVERYTHING!

Timing...it really is everything!

I do believe dreams have meaning. And I've had some doozies lately.

I'm so glad nerdy guys are starting to appeal to me (Big Bang Theory)...maybe the douchebag magnet deep inside me is starting to lose its strength!

I have learned to hold my breath for really long periods of time now...every time Kayti leaves the house driving without me!

I am really excited about the reCreate Women's conference this weekend at my awesome church--Church of the Highlands!

I am really missing my friends--haven't hung out with them in a while and I need my girl time! Maybe next weekend?

Kinda wishing I could find someone to go to the Shrimp Festival with us and split the cost of my hotel room...but SUPER excited about going!

Debating whether or not I should buy my own camping equipment or borrow the ex's for Halloween weekend...if he'll even let me!

I confess, I miss Facebook...just a little.

I am having a difficult time navigating Twitter but it's a distraction...which I didn't need but did want.

I have great taste, I just don't have the money to prove it! LOL

Blessings!

Wordless Wednesday

One week and counting...

It's been one week since I've been on Facebook! I honestly can't believe I made it this long but it really hasn't been too bad. I miss conversing on a daily basis with some people but honestly, they know how to get me if they really wanted to chat so...

A few have contacted me to find out how I am, what's going on, why I left, etc. That's how you find out who your friends are!

As far as WHY I left...well I always said that when it got to be more nuisance and burdensome or harmful than productive and conducive to a healthy lifestyle then I would leave. It finally came to that point. I was spending way too much time on it, worrying about every little thing I said, whether it was going to get me in trouble or piss somebody off. That's not me.

Quite frankly, I'm tired of worrying about people getting their panties in a wad over stupid stuff like football trash talk. Grow up already. If you can't handle it, don't be a fan. And don't even think you are somehow "classier". Some people can handle it, some can't. And don't think that it doesn't happen on BOTH sides. I just got tired of constantly seeing the ones who can overlook it on their side but constantly call the other side out, acting like a little stepchild over it. Give me a break.

But that's really only a small part of it. I need to focus on myself right now. I'm trying to accomplish a few things professionally, grow closer to God, refinish some furniture, work on my writin,  perhaps look for a new apartment...every minute I spend on Facebook is a minute I'm not doing something else I should be.

And I really took the plunge...I deleted the app from my phone and scheduled my account for deletion! They say it takes 21 days to break a habit...14 more days to go!

Soccer season...

My little soccer star is not enjoying this season. She's not fond of her coach or many of her team members and that breaks my heart. She so enjoyed the Spring season and Coach Shaun and to follow that with this is disappointing. I myself do not enjoy some of the parents...ugh! Soccer people! I don't understand much of soccer aside from kick the ball into the net so I cheer my daughter "Go Brooke" and keep my mouth shut for the most part. I wish some parents would follow suit because even in my limited knowledge it's obvious to me they know even less but don't mind sharing that they know so little with everyone in the park if you get my meaning! Then there are the parents who think their kid will be the next Mia Hamm or David Beckham or that they are cheering a football game! Really, people, it's JUST SOCCER, it's a REC LEAGUE, not a competitive league and your kid ain't all that! And of course you have the soccer snobs that don't realize this IS football season! lol Why can't we play our games in the morning before games come on? Hey, if you don't care about football, it IS cooler in the mornings, think of that! But no, it's like they are trying to make a point or something. Just annoying. But I digress...my daughter loves it, she's good at it so I told her just to enjoy playing and work on her own skills. If her team members can't cooperate then there's always next season. I will continue to sit away from people and keep my mouth shut (but I will vent here from time to time! lol) More pictures:

Thankful Thursday

Today, September 20, 2012, I am thankful for... The Nick Saban Show playing while I watch my daughter practice soccer. For that matter, I am thankful for Nick Saban! RTR I am thankful for Pinterest for inspiring me to recycle my old Fall decorations in new ways! I am thankful for my coworker, Lara! She makes me laugh, listens to me vent, "gets" me and just makes my job that much more enjoyable! I am thankful for each of the little ones in my class. Though some days they are absolute handfuls, they are also very precious to me in so many ways! I am thankful for the wonderful group of ladies in my Church of the Highlands Small Group! We laugh and talk and pray and I am so blessed every week to spend time in the Word with them. And as always, I am thankful for my three precious children, wonderful friends and family and the love and grace of my Lord and Savior Jesus Christ!

Soccer pictures

Yes, our "Liverpool" Soccer team has its very own photographer and judging from the shots he got of Brooke this past weekend, I won't even waste my time trying to take pictures with my cell phone! Photograpy...one hobby I never have been able to pursue. But oh well!

Hope you enjoy these of my soccer star! (She's #3, btw!)