No moping...

Got less sleep last night than I normally do and have been down this morning...yes, because of a man! If he can even be called that...but I digress. Was all set to be in a hum drum mood this morning until I logged on to Facebook and seen some other status updates.



I have friends with loved ones in terrible health. Other friends who have just lost their father/husband. Another friend lost her beloved dog and best friend. Other friends are having money issues and I know all too well the stress that brings. My heart breaks for them, it really does. But it does help me put things in perspective.



I am in decent health, have a great job that I love, a great apartment, great friends, family relationships are on the mend and I'm set to get my income tax refund tomorrow after which I will have new furniture and a new car so I can resume doing things I love--church, zumba, hobbies, visiting friends, going out, traveling...



So my biggest problem is that *I* dumped a loser and I still care than he's angry I wouldn't allow him to manipulate me, that I wouldnt give him his way and resort to a life of sitting around with him watching wrestling while his parents support us and roaches crawl all over his pizza? He's right about one thing--I am stupid! Stupid because I care. Stupid that it breaks my heart that his is a wasted life and he doesnt care himself.



But yeah...right now that's my biggest problem. I think I am VERY blessed!



I recently watched the movie, "Eat, Pray, Love" (wish I could say I read the book but I have been in such a reading funk lately) and her guru told her something I thought to be very profound:



"It's okay to miss someone. Don't fight it. Give them a little miss, a little love, shine a little light at them and then drop it and move on with your life."



I know I didnt quote that exactly right word for word but that's the jist of it.



So yeah, right or wrong, sometimes I miss him. It was a part of my life that contains bad and good and makes me who I am. I cant love who I am without embracing that experience on some level. And I do love me. And am very grateful to be me. So from time to time if you read a post of mine that seems weepy, it's just miss, acknowledging my human side and my ability to love even the unlovable, forgive the unforgiveable and miss and wish well the detestable.



It may be my biggest flaw but one I'm proud to have and so the rest of my life should be a piece of cake!



Hope you enjoyed this serving of cake!

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