The "plan"

One thing I learned in Brookwood and from my counselor is that every idea has to have a plan or it will always be just an idea.



Well, I've always been good at having a "plan". In fact, I love to plan. I keep a calendar, a to do list, love to plan parties and events, always try to get an idea of what I'll be doing tomorrow, the next day, the weekend...That's not to say I dont like surprises or cant be spontaneous. I am just a born planner.



But I dont always put action behind it so that's my number one goal right now. The "plan" is easy, it's the follow up that takes some commitment. Sometimes there just are not enough hours in the day, days in the week...to do all I want to do or even need to do. But that's no excuse for not trying.



The first thing I know I have to do is work harder at nuturing my relationship with my Lord & Savior. I think I step away from Him sometimes because I KNOW I dont measure up. Some of the things I do, choices I make, habits that are hard to give up, I know are in direct conflict with the way I know God wants me to live. Dying to the flesh every day is REALLY hard. I am so thankful that I love and serve a risen savior that understands that and extends grace to the point where my self-discipline ends. It's time for me to give Him more of me. Pray more, get into His word more. Let Him be my everything, especially now.



The second is health but I am SO blessed that that's the easy part. Talking with so many of my friends, I have discovered I am VERY healthy. I dont take near as many medicines as a lot of people do, dont have nearly as many aches and pains...and I want to keep it that way. Time NOT to go on a diet but to really pay attention to what goes into my body. Sugar and caffeine are on their way out! Alcohol will be significantly reduced very soon, though it's never been a problem for me, it still isn't "good" for me either.



The weight that creeped its way back on after my knee surgeries are on their way out also. I just about have a routine and workable schedule in place that includes, swimming laps, lifting weights, walking and zumba. It may take awhile to get back down to the size I need to be but I know it wont take long to start feeling better. I am a firm believer in endorphins! And it's important for me to be able to be in good shape. Too many things on my "bucket list" are physically demanding!



Mentally--I love my celexa. But there are still days when certain people can push my buttons, though it's getting tougher and tougher for them to accomplish that and the occurrences are fewer and further between. And I know when I get the spiritual and the exercise going good, the mental is destine to improve also.



I have a new job which should help with the car/apartment situation but I will share more as those become closer to reality. The rest is cosmetic and is going to take time and money. But I plan on looking, feeling and BEING 200% better within the next six months. And I'm excited!