Starting working out again yesterday. Did four miles on the bike and weights. I got up this morning and went to Billy Hewitt park and did 2 miles in 49 minutes. That is not good. The Susan G. Komen is in little over a month and if I do the 5k, that is 3.1 miles and my goal is 45 minutes. Gonna be tough since I'm not supposed to be running. I keep thinking about getting a second opinion on that but every time I do, the left knee starts acting up again. I guess that's God's way of saying, "um, no!" Dangit. I really do like running.
Tomorrow I have to work 7:30-4:30 so I'm hitting the Y early for the bike/weights workout and I will do my walking around the soccer field while Brooke has soccer practice.
I'm hoping to throw in some floor exercises and zumba in here somewhere soon but trying to find a class has been difficult.
I've cut way back on the caffeine. I only have it in the mornings and around 3 in the afternoon. And absolutely NO caffeine after 6 p.m. The rest of the time, I drink water.
Also NO eating after 8 p.m. I would like to bump that up to 6 p.m. but with my schedule, it's just not possible right now. Still, it's a start.
I'm excited about getting my body back! And what I cant fix through diet and exercise, I'm looking into surgery. Like for my tummy. I do at least 50 crunches on the weight machine with 50 pounds EVERY day and I still cant get rid of my tummy. it's all brooke's fault! lol Well, not hers but the idiot doctor that decided to cut me to tie my tubes instead of going through the belly button like everyone else! Surgery is the only option to get rid of that.
I'm studying up on exercise physiology and nutrition and it's still on my to do list to get my zumba instructor certifcation as well.
Mentally, I'm doing well. Emotionally...it's been a tough week for various reasons but during my walk this morning I listed to some awesome praise and worship and during the day when I was thinking about a certain situation in my life, God put this verse on my heart:
"Delight yourself in the LORD and He will give you the desires of your heart."
You Scriptorians out there probably can name the book and verse. I just remember the words of the Lord and so I took steps to make sure my focus right now IS on the Lord and Him only. It was tough because it was something I really wanted. But I know God has been trying to teach me discipline for YEARS, decades even and it's time I started heeding His lead. It wont be easy. But I know it's the right thing.
Wednesday, August 31, 2011
Tuesday, August 30, 2011
The "plan"
One thing I learned in Brookwood and from my counselor is that every idea has to have a plan or it will always be just an idea.
Well, I've always been good at having a "plan". In fact, I love to plan. I keep a calendar, a to do list, love to plan parties and events, always try to get an idea of what I'll be doing tomorrow, the next day, the weekend...That's not to say I dont like surprises or cant be spontaneous. I am just a born planner.
But I dont always put action behind it so that's my number one goal right now. The "plan" is easy, it's the follow up that takes some commitment. Sometimes there just are not enough hours in the day, days in the week...to do all I want to do or even need to do. But that's no excuse for not trying.
The first thing I know I have to do is work harder at nuturing my relationship with my Lord & Savior. I think I step away from Him sometimes because I KNOW I dont measure up. Some of the things I do, choices I make, habits that are hard to give up, I know are in direct conflict with the way I know God wants me to live. Dying to the flesh every day is REALLY hard. I am so thankful that I love and serve a risen savior that understands that and extends grace to the point where my self-discipline ends. It's time for me to give Him more of me. Pray more, get into His word more. Let Him be my everything, especially now.
The second is health but I am SO blessed that that's the easy part. Talking with so many of my friends, I have discovered I am VERY healthy. I dont take near as many medicines as a lot of people do, dont have nearly as many aches and pains...and I want to keep it that way. Time NOT to go on a diet but to really pay attention to what goes into my body. Sugar and caffeine are on their way out! Alcohol will be significantly reduced very soon, though it's never been a problem for me, it still isn't "good" for me either.
The weight that creeped its way back on after my knee surgeries are on their way out also. I just about have a routine and workable schedule in place that includes, swimming laps, lifting weights, walking and zumba. It may take awhile to get back down to the size I need to be but I know it wont take long to start feeling better. I am a firm believer in endorphins! And it's important for me to be able to be in good shape. Too many things on my "bucket list" are physically demanding!
Mentally--I love my celexa. But there are still days when certain people can push my buttons, though it's getting tougher and tougher for them to accomplish that and the occurrences are fewer and further between. And I know when I get the spiritual and the exercise going good, the mental is destine to improve also.
I have a new job which should help with the car/apartment situation but I will share more as those become closer to reality. The rest is cosmetic and is going to take time and money. But I plan on looking, feeling and BEING 200% better within the next six months. And I'm excited!
Well, I've always been good at having a "plan". In fact, I love to plan. I keep a calendar, a to do list, love to plan parties and events, always try to get an idea of what I'll be doing tomorrow, the next day, the weekend...That's not to say I dont like surprises or cant be spontaneous. I am just a born planner.
But I dont always put action behind it so that's my number one goal right now. The "plan" is easy, it's the follow up that takes some commitment. Sometimes there just are not enough hours in the day, days in the week...to do all I want to do or even need to do. But that's no excuse for not trying.
The first thing I know I have to do is work harder at nuturing my relationship with my Lord & Savior. I think I step away from Him sometimes because I KNOW I dont measure up. Some of the things I do, choices I make, habits that are hard to give up, I know are in direct conflict with the way I know God wants me to live. Dying to the flesh every day is REALLY hard. I am so thankful that I love and serve a risen savior that understands that and extends grace to the point where my self-discipline ends. It's time for me to give Him more of me. Pray more, get into His word more. Let Him be my everything, especially now.
The second is health but I am SO blessed that that's the easy part. Talking with so many of my friends, I have discovered I am VERY healthy. I dont take near as many medicines as a lot of people do, dont have nearly as many aches and pains...and I want to keep it that way. Time NOT to go on a diet but to really pay attention to what goes into my body. Sugar and caffeine are on their way out! Alcohol will be significantly reduced very soon, though it's never been a problem for me, it still isn't "good" for me either.
The weight that creeped its way back on after my knee surgeries are on their way out also. I just about have a routine and workable schedule in place that includes, swimming laps, lifting weights, walking and zumba. It may take awhile to get back down to the size I need to be but I know it wont take long to start feeling better. I am a firm believer in endorphins! And it's important for me to be able to be in good shape. Too many things on my "bucket list" are physically demanding!
Mentally--I love my celexa. But there are still days when certain people can push my buttons, though it's getting tougher and tougher for them to accomplish that and the occurrences are fewer and further between. And I know when I get the spiritual and the exercise going good, the mental is destine to improve also.
I have a new job which should help with the car/apartment situation but I will share more as those become closer to reality. The rest is cosmetic and is going to take time and money. But I plan on looking, feeling and BEING 200% better within the next six months. And I'm excited!
Under construction
the blog and me! There has been SO MUCH that has happened since my last post that I'm even taking a sabbatical from Facebook to revamp this entire blog! I'm organizing it into more sections and adding a few projects. So check back soon for exciting news and features. Until then, be blessed!
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